theres a tension in the way that you say this stranger's name
i thought i could hear you making those sounds all day
but i get restless and redfaced trying to explain
i love you and yr leaf-like eyes but i also need space
and you just wanted something to be underneath
it took me a long time to see that isn't me
and i think about you all the time
but none of it is ever nice
you cant be happy living like this
but you are and i wouldnt be
and i cant do things any different
so i ask with Jamie
could it be you are the one
waiting insanely for me
to disregard caution
and to help me stop this
dont you see i want this?
all the blood and vomit
at the beginning of this year when everybody left i almost intentionally crashed my car
i had just played a song for you to hear
it was about yr bed and i didnt try very hard
and now i've come back to the start
freedoms just being alone
this isnt how healing goes
i wont get better now
i'll take everything too far
here you go
i hope im yr secret
its dumb to even say that
yr the clot inside my heart
and
i wont get better if you go away
i wont get better if you just stay
i wont get better if my friends come home
i wont get better if i'm left alone
i wont get better if i stop drinking
i wont get better if i keep thinking
i wont get better even if i run
i wont get better if i talk to someone
i wont get better with this all inside
i wont get better when i finally cry
i wont get better when i write these words
i wont get better by the time they're heard
i wont get better if i leave my room
i wont get better if i never do
i wont get better im just like you
i wont get better i wont get better i wont
Lo-fi, strummy, & fuzzy, this recording project from Jared Sparkes of Michigan band Don't lives in the zone where bedroom pop meets garage. Bandcamp New & Notable May 26, 2022
The title of this one is a good indication of what’s in store: wonderfully bleak ambient music conjuring funereal atmospheres. Bandcamp New & Notable Jan 29, 2022